Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Our House

A few random thoughts about the house we live in here in Tucson Az. In my mind these thoughts all seem important and related, we'll see if they actually are.

A few weeks ago I put a hole in the wall. With my foot. It was the accidental casualty of a momentary emotional outburst and it terrified me. I usually don't burst out emotionally. And I hate to leave marks. And the thing is, I have been feeling pretty good about our house lately.

When we first moved into our home about 3 years ago, new homeowners and all, I hated the place. It was my cage locking me into the life of a suburban housewife. I used to fantasize all the time about breaking all the windows and knocking holes in the walls. (Btw, I've ranted a bit about our house before.)

But I feel more at peace with our home now. Maybe it is just surrendering to the situation, maybe it is making the best of the situation, whatever it is... I no longer feel the same hostility to this house that I once did. Our back yard is heavenly; the Ash tree is an explosion of green that gives the nicest shade, hubby just put in a Chinese elm that promises all sorts of loveliness, at this very moment the star jasmine is in full bloom (intoxicating smell), a month ago the trumpet vines had an unreal flowery orange and pink and red party and the favors are still lingering. (Seriously. It's just beautiful. Ya'll are welcome to come visit anytime you like. But if you come in the spring, it's the bomb.) Plus we just painted a bit of red in the house that just makes my heart go pitter-pat.

I like our house.
Financially... well, we won't go into the finances of this. That's depressing. But for now, we can afford this home, and that counts for a lot.
And our family is happy here.
That counts for tons.

So, I'll patch up that little hole I put in the wall and maybe paint it too, add even more color to the home.

And anytime you want to come for a visit, feel free. :)


EmilyCC said...

I love the red wall! And, I'm glad you're feeling better about your house. I need to have a better attitude about mine.

G said...

aw thanks emily. I love your red wall too, btw.
Houses and homes are such funny entities aren't they?

The Numismatist said...

About twelve years ago we flew into Tucson in April. The desert was in full bloom and I fell in love with it. Ended up buying a home near Ajo where we were able to escape the Utah snow for a few weeks at a time. I don't think it has bloomed like that since.

We sold the home five years ago. I still miss it occasionally.

Your phrase "accidental casualty of a momentary emotional outburst" had me chuckling. Will you repeat that over and over as you are patching, spackling and painting?

Every wall in our home is beige, with light beige trim. And beige flooring. I need some of your bold red.

angryyoungwoman said...

Isn't it funny how homes grow on you?

I hated my little attic apartment for such a long time. It was months before I even unpacked my things. I'm finally getting used to living here and feeling somewhat at home.

D'Arcy said...

With all the amazing people in Arizona I'm meeting, I may just have to!

Chandelle said...

I feel your pain! I can't wait to get out of our behemoth of a house...and into a teensy weensy itsy bitsy apartment, the likes of which I wanted so desperately to escape to...this behemoth of a house! And round and round it goes. LOVE the red.

Emily S. said...

LOVE the Flickr set! Makes me happy! Made me want to make you an apron, just for fun.