tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post6488768904567472122..comments2023-04-03T04:00:20.248-07:00Comments on figuring it out...: wrong turnsUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-14233494698786856492010-04-23T13:59:53.420-07:002010-04-23T13:59:53.420-07:00I hear ya Craig and G. Part of my beef with the Ho...I hear ya Craig and G. Part of my beef with the Holy Ghost surfaced as I gained experience (in my own body or through others' experiences) with mental illness. Was that the spirit telling me I made a bad decision, or was it an anxiety attack? Is this me giving in to Satan's discouragement or is it the level of serotonin in my brain? <br /><br />And it's true about the opening a door Hazel Moteshttp://hazel-motes.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-5967359293433914332010-04-23T11:18:23.453-07:002010-04-23T11:18:23.453-07:00Very interesting!
I don't normally make unfam...Very interesting!<br /><br />I don't normally make unfamiliar wrong turns, but -- when driving -- if there's a turn that leads home (or to some other familiar location), I'll take it without thinking. It's like the lower part of my brain says "When we get to this intersection, we turn left -- no need to consult the conscious about it!"<br /><br />It's a problem if IC. L. Hansonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12698855413639518095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-66812472014948720062010-04-22T22:53:08.051-07:002010-04-22T22:53:08.051-07:00OMG yes. As soon as you give yourself licence to q...OMG yes. As soon as you give yourself licence to question, you open a door that can never be closed. This is common to all authoritarian organisations, whether religious or political, and that is why authoritarianism is both so powerful and so evil. Without the power to question and criticise, anything can be and is justified.Craighttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09374110841642375968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-37505537559558343992010-04-22T21:37:01.990-07:002010-04-22T21:37:01.990-07:00/nodding.
me as well (re: believing that god had a.../nodding.<br />me as well (re: believing that god had answered my prayer and that the church was wrong). <br /><br />and also, that initial questioning of authority answers, which lead finally to questioning the whole organization. <br /><br />(which is why questioning is so closely guarded/controlled in the church; significant use of Fear Language whenever anyone discusses "questioning&galen dara https://www.blogger.com/profile/02987352194018060353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-72681349905051591822010-04-22T21:28:21.065-07:002010-04-22T21:28:21.065-07:00Yep. Though it took me a while to figure that one ...Yep. Though it took me a while to figure that one out. I actually did believe for a while (right when I came out) that god told me though prayer that the church was wrong about homosexuality - which was the thing that made me reject the authority of the church. <br /><br />But almost all of my life, when I prayed, I never felt that I ever got an answer, because I never could tell the difference Craighttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09374110841642375968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-77929141026421341122010-04-22T21:24:33.132-07:002010-04-22T21:24:33.132-07:00precisely.
what I finally realized was that the...precisely. <br /><br />what I finally realized was that the rhetoric of seeking answers to prayers was double speak for <i>"we know you'll find the answers we tell you to find. (And you will know that if your answer differs from the answer we tell you to find, it is because there is a problem with you.)"</i>galen dara https://www.blogger.com/profile/02987352194018060353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-71120400484390719312010-04-22T19:10:34.434-07:002010-04-22T19:10:34.434-07:00Yeah, it was. Especially as they constantly contr...Yeah, it was. Especially as they constantly contradict, and you have to discern which messages are from god, which from you, and which from satan. I never figured out how you were ever supposed to tell the difference, or how anyone ever thought they did. Actually that was, besides my being gay, the main thing that drove me to question everything - there was just no way to know when/if god was Craighttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09374110841642375968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-9597181851379774752010-04-22T18:52:54.056-07:002010-04-22T18:52:54.056-07:00Exactly.
Very much a relief.
Trying to de-code a...Exactly.<br />Very much a relief. <br />Trying to de-code all those perceived signs and messages is quite exhausting and nerve-wracking.galen dara https://www.blogger.com/profile/02987352194018060353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4319139334819650146.post-8255045407764593882010-04-22T18:28:07.770-07:002010-04-22T18:28:07.770-07:00It's fascinating how differently I perceive th...It's fascinating how differently I perceive the world and my experiences now that I no longer attribute anything to the supernatural. <br />Mormonism is quite rife with magical thinking, from the different types of blessings and prayer to the belief that the "Holy Ghost" is telling you what to do. Once I realised there was no practical difference between a belief in the priesthoodCraighttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09374110841642375968noreply@blogger.com